Category Archives: Health

DISTURBED AND SICK

I am not sure where to place my emotions today. Feeling pissed off ,chocked.frustrated ,disturbed ,angry ,like screaming screw this world.

Sometimes you wish you could reverse  time,go back to bed and start a day afresh .Absolutely on a different note.

What puzzles me though is how my mood changed from 0 to 100 real fast. Woke feeling relaxed ;body and mind at peace. Had a partly productive morning than suddenly things took a turn for the absolute worst ,emotionally.

Some peoples faces just irritate the crap out of me and worse is when I have to talk or they speak to me. HELP!!!!!

As I write this ,I realize that maybe my moods are an effect of my addiction to pethidine. A battle I just figured out last night I need to deal with. Reading through the web the effect of dependency on it didn’t really seem that bad. I literally thought I could definitely manage ,oh boy!!!How wrong was I.

My lack of self control and dependency is currently  on a downward spiral. It is affecting my work , my social life, my academic life( Oh shit!!! I haven’t done my events management research ;this is 2 months down the line), my spiritual life ( this is totally fucked up) ,and any other sphere of my life that exists at all.

I hate my self. Totally and completely hate myself right now.

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That Kinda Feeling

It is an amazing Friday afternoon maybe cause it’s finally the weekend or maybe because my shitty week is finally over. Shitty really???? I don’t think it was that bad.I got discharge from hospital on Monday spent the day with my brother and friend before she ventured out to a new country for a new job,yaaay!!! The sad part of the day though,she is LEAVING!!! My ride and die partner in crime,my adventurous soul mate but oh well,this is definitely not the last of us. Thank God for flights and travel.The beauty of life.

Got back to work on Tuesday ,arrgh!!! why??? I have this swollen throat/neck courtesy of the central line procedure done in hospital to help in blood transfusion and medicine administration during my admission,feeling a tad bit crappy but work is piling and scheduled meetings attendance mandatory but what the hell.That’s the life of a WARRIOR.

Wednesday wasn’t any better.The rains came pouring down, letting out its frustration on us ,soggy and tired  plus missed out on the screening of Kill Bill ,schuck!!life beats you to a pulp when it decides too but it’s never that serious. Was definitely looking forward to a new day

Thursday was cool and chilled towards the evening.I spent time with friends talking ,laughing,dancing ,getting a bit intoxicated,being controllable naughty(if this is even possible or makes sense) and got counselled in the process….a whole lot going on with my confused self.Me figuring me and struggling;guess that’s life .Made new friends;the beautiful global village we live in ,had fun doing it and plus new amazing memories in the process. Yap!!!The weekend is finally looking up.

Today,my day is feeling blessed and happy.Finally planning to attend that prolonged yoga class courtesy of my munchkin,buddy. Work is smooth and the music booming in my ears ,well,am on cloud nine.Actually my inspiration for writing the post is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAmxjSXQVsQ&list=RDMMb8I-7Wk_Vbc&index=19

Have a listen,maybe you too will get some inspiration.

……..That Kinda Feeling.

Lovely weekend good people ,live life ,have fun and let down your troubles at least for the weekend.